It is said that Life is like a coin. Pleasure and Pain are the two sides. Only one side is visible at a time. But remember other side is also waiting for it's turn. So perhaps for me it has just turned positive . After ordeal of more than two and half months , I am back again at my desired place of posting.
Happy days are here again
The skies above are clear again
So let's sing a song of cheer again
Happy days are here again
Altogether shout it now
There's no one
Who can doubt it now
So let's tell the world about it now
Happy days are here again
But I have also learnt a lot of lesson. So much mud slanging, so much dirty politics, so much back biting, unethical game but any how it gets managed and I am today able to show that decision of authority should remain intact with respect to me. At this moment of time, I MUST DECLARE IN UNEQUIVOCAL TERMS THAT I AM HIGHLY OBLIGED TO ALL MY FRIENDS WHO DURING THIS PERIOD OF CRISIS STOOD WITH ME.Without their support this task was simply impossible to achieve.
What's greater then mom's love?
Which pillow is better then Mom lap?
Which company's better then friends?
There are some things in life with no substitutes.
Love them forever.
Monday 26 July 2010
Thursday 22 July 2010
Why I am sad ?
मन में सवाल बहुत सारे उठते हैं. कभी कभी मन एकदम शांत रहता है और कभी कभी अचानक बेचैन हो जाता है. आखिर क्यों. अगर मै एक समझदार और बुद्धिमान आदमी हूँ तो मैं अपने मन को क्यों नहीं समझा पाता हूँ की मै दुनिया में असंख्य लोगो से ज्यादा सुखी हूँ. भगवान ने मुझे जो दिया है उसमे संतुष्ट रहना चाहिए मुझे . पर शायद मनुष्य को कुछ conflict में रहने की आदत सी हो गई है. दिल और दिमाग में सामंजस्य बैठाने में शायद इसीलिए मै असमर्थ रहता हूँ.
“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel." So it pains when people raise a finger on my integrity and my honesty how can one say so/ What right anybody has got to question my sincerity in any relationship. All my relationships are based on the foundation of mutual acceptance and in my life, yes, in my life till today I have not betrayed anyone with whom I have developed some kind of relationship. that is not my CHARACTER. I might commit some mistakes, I may hurt my loved ones but so far none, has alleged that Rajiw has betrayed her/him. This I can say with confidence with respect to all with whom I have somekind of relationship. I am not ashamed of any of my relationships. I value all these.
अब अगर कोई character assisnation पर पिल पड़ा है तो मै क्या करू? मुझे दुःख तो बहुत होता है जब मेरे प्रिय के पास ही कोई तमाम तरह की उटपटांग बाते करे और उसके पास सुनने के सिवाई कोई चारा न रहे.
And what is more important is an alert is being sounded againist me . So ridiculous! Had I been working there, in that office, in that section , then may be there would havs been reasons for which people should be warned against my habits, my 'character'. Fact is that I rarely visit there, hardly once in a month. Then why anyone should try make people alert against me.
A perfect relationship is based on solid foundation of mutual underatanding and confidence. Anyone is free to walk out from a relationship anytime. Noone can thrust a relationship on anyone. So no need of any warning. This act is very silly and reflects some deep kind of mental problem that person is suffering.
But I find solace from the fact that still many people understand me as a nice person.that give me strength to fight.
People say about me- "you are master in managing people"................. ooh................ whether it is complement or comment difficult to understand . Still what I feel is that I make people comfortable before me, simply because I just think, at least for a moment , their point from their angle. And secondly I project myself as a harmless yet cooperative person. that makes people to accept me more readly.
“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel." So it pains when people raise a finger on my integrity and my honesty how can one say so/ What right anybody has got to question my sincerity in any relationship. All my relationships are based on the foundation of mutual acceptance and in my life, yes, in my life till today I have not betrayed anyone with whom I have developed some kind of relationship. that is not my CHARACTER. I might commit some mistakes, I may hurt my loved ones but so far none, has alleged that Rajiw has betrayed her/him. This I can say with confidence with respect to all with whom I have somekind of relationship. I am not ashamed of any of my relationships. I value all these.
अब अगर कोई character assisnation पर पिल पड़ा है तो मै क्या करू? मुझे दुःख तो बहुत होता है जब मेरे प्रिय के पास ही कोई तमाम तरह की उटपटांग बाते करे और उसके पास सुनने के सिवाई कोई चारा न रहे.
And what is more important is an alert is being sounded againist me . So ridiculous! Had I been working there, in that office, in that section , then may be there would havs been reasons for which people should be warned against my habits, my 'character'. Fact is that I rarely visit there, hardly once in a month. Then why anyone should try make people alert against me.
A perfect relationship is based on solid foundation of mutual underatanding and confidence. Anyone is free to walk out from a relationship anytime. Noone can thrust a relationship on anyone. So no need of any warning. This act is very silly and reflects some deep kind of mental problem that person is suffering.
But I find solace from the fact that still many people understand me as a nice person.that give me strength to fight.
People say about me- "you are master in managing people"................. ooh................ whether it is complement or comment difficult to understand . Still what I feel is that I make people comfortable before me, simply because I just think, at least for a moment , their point from their angle. And secondly I project myself as a harmless yet cooperative person. that makes people to accept me more readly.
Tuesday 20 July 2010
A Love Poem
It feels nice when someone misses u
feels good when someone loves u.
feels better when someone is with u.
But it feels the best when
someone never 4gets you...
Being yours is my basic necessity,
Missing you is my habit.
But forgetting you is like taking
my life out of me.
U make me realize that
You cannot fall in love
You can just rise in love.
Take my eyes but let me see you.
Take my mind but let me think about you.
But if you want to take my heart..
Its already with you.
When you love someone,
its like reaching for a star..
You know you cant reach
it, but u keep trying
Coz may be one day that star
just might fall for you.
Your smile is a beautiful as dew
Nothing is beautiful than it
Your love is as warm as fireplace
Nothing warmer than that
I just want to say I love you..
Till my life apart..
You are the reason of my breath
You are my creation my world..
Life can never be complete without
your love.
feels good when someone loves u.
feels better when someone is with u.
But it feels the best when
someone never 4gets you...
Being yours is my basic necessity,
Missing you is my habit.
But forgetting you is like taking
my life out of me.
U make me realize that
You cannot fall in love
You can just rise in love.
Take my eyes but let me see you.
Take my mind but let me think about you.
But if you want to take my heart..
Its already with you.
When you love someone,
its like reaching for a star..
You know you cant reach
it, but u keep trying
Coz may be one day that star
just might fall for you.
Your smile is a beautiful as dew
Nothing is beautiful than it
Your love is as warm as fireplace
Nothing warmer than that
I just want to say I love you..
Till my life apart..
You are the reason of my breath
You are my creation my world..
Life can never be complete without
your love.
Monday 19 July 2010
Ek Haadsa
सासाराम जाने के क्रम में दिनांक १२ जुलाई की घटना को भुलाना लगभग असंभव है. जिस टाटा सुमो से मै जा रहा था , पिरो से पहले उसने एक अधेड़ महिला को बीच सड़क पर धक्का मारा , बदकिस्मती से उस महिला की तत्काल उसी क्षण वँही पर मौत हो गई. अपने सामने वीभत्स मौत का नज़ारा मैंने पहली बार देखा . प्राण मुंह को आ गए. ऐसा लगा मानो सारी दुनिया यंही खत्म हो जाएगी . ड्राईवर ने जैसे तैसे गाडी को नियंत्रित किया. हम सभी यात्री चिल्लाए - भागो, भागो , और ड्राईवर गाडी लेकर भाग निकला. पीछे से लोगों का शोर सुने दिया. उस वक़्त हमें अपनी और ड्राईवर की सुरक्षा की चिंता थी. लेकिन मौत से ठीक पहले महिला के चेहरे की भाव भंगिमा , मन से निकलने का नाम ही नहीं ले रही थी.
The kind of emotions displayed on her face- the surprise, the fear, her desperate attemt to escape and finally her helplessness in front of a speeding vehicle, all made me really very sad. Not only sad but also I felt guilty of not doing anything to save her. Should I have forced driver to stop after the accident? But this might have led to lynching of driver by irate mob. I cursed my fate .
मै उस दिन न ठीक से खा सका और न ही रात में ठीक से सो सका. महिला का चेहरा हमेशा मेरे जेहन में कई दिनों तक घूमता रहा. हो सकता हो की उस महिला के बच्चे उसकी प्रतीक्षा कर रहे हो. एक माँ के बिना उनके जीवन की क्या दशा हो सकती है. वो किसी की पत्नी होगी, किसी की बेटी होगी, किसी की बहन होगी, यह भी हो सकता है की किसी के पालने पोषने की पूरी जिम्मेवारी उसी के कंधे पर हो. निश्चित तौर पर एक व्यक्ति के चले जाने के बाद पूरा परिवार विखर सकता है.
Why sometime fate or bhagya becomes so bad for some people? Why without our own fault , really bad things happen to us? What is life? Why we take so much pain to shape up it when we know that it can end any day without warning, without notice ? Why we plan so much for future?
इस दुर्घटना के ठीक एक दिन बाद मै बीमार पड़ा. कहीं ऐसा तो नहीं की मृत महिला की आत्मा ने मुझे और अन्य यात्रियों को श्राप दिया हो ?उस दुर्घटना में मेरा कोई role नहीं था पर guilty feeling तो हो ही जाती है...................
The kind of emotions displayed on her face- the surprise, the fear, her desperate attemt to escape and finally her helplessness in front of a speeding vehicle, all made me really very sad. Not only sad but also I felt guilty of not doing anything to save her. Should I have forced driver to stop after the accident? But this might have led to lynching of driver by irate mob. I cursed my fate .
मै उस दिन न ठीक से खा सका और न ही रात में ठीक से सो सका. महिला का चेहरा हमेशा मेरे जेहन में कई दिनों तक घूमता रहा. हो सकता हो की उस महिला के बच्चे उसकी प्रतीक्षा कर रहे हो. एक माँ के बिना उनके जीवन की क्या दशा हो सकती है. वो किसी की पत्नी होगी, किसी की बेटी होगी, किसी की बहन होगी, यह भी हो सकता है की किसी के पालने पोषने की पूरी जिम्मेवारी उसी के कंधे पर हो. निश्चित तौर पर एक व्यक्ति के चले जाने के बाद पूरा परिवार विखर सकता है.
Why sometime fate or bhagya becomes so bad for some people? Why without our own fault , really bad things happen to us? What is life? Why we take so much pain to shape up it when we know that it can end any day without warning, without notice ? Why we plan so much for future?
इस दुर्घटना के ठीक एक दिन बाद मै बीमार पड़ा. कहीं ऐसा तो नहीं की मृत महिला की आत्मा ने मुझे और अन्य यात्रियों को श्राप दिया हो ?उस दुर्घटना में मेरा कोई role नहीं था पर guilty feeling तो हो ही जाती है...................
Thursday 1 July 2010
There is something good in everyday
You wake up in the morning, open your eyes and possibly think, “I need coffee or Tea”. Afterwards you proceed to get ready for your day, hustling and bustling trying to either get to work or whatever your agenda entails for that day. Somewhere in your subconscious mind, you have already seeded the thought for the day “today is a good day or a bad day”. At that moment, of that thought, your day begins…
Sometimes despite all your engagements , you feel alone. Most people despise being alone.However, there is a power in being able to find contentment in solitude, even if this is a forced one. In my opinion, a great deal of the pain caused by loneliness is due to a lack of control. Solitude is easy to enjoy when it isn’t forced. I think most people enjoy a few hours or even a few days to themselves if their regular lives are full of activity and meaningful people.
So when you lack control over your situation, solitude becomes loneliness. If you feel your isolation wasn’t chosen, and you can’t control it, that exile can be unbearable. The key, in my opinion, to reducing loneliness, is to regain some control.
For me , the best way to enjoy solitude is by improving my inner world first. I may have had difficulties controlling my loneliness from the outside, but I could control my inner world so that it would be more pleasant to live in isolation.
I quote what George Washington had said-It is far better to be alone, than to be in bad company.
Of course we can and should keep our composure and happiness regardless of circumstances - regardless of our friends, family and co-workers - regardless of gossip, sarcasm, and negativity.
That is why, I believe “Every day may not be good, but there’s something good in everyday” and with this intention,I want all my friends to nurture this positive thought by sharing the smallest good thing that made them happy (even if it was for a while) for that day with me.
Sometimes despite all your engagements , you feel alone. Most people despise being alone.However, there is a power in being able to find contentment in solitude, even if this is a forced one. In my opinion, a great deal of the pain caused by loneliness is due to a lack of control. Solitude is easy to enjoy when it isn’t forced. I think most people enjoy a few hours or even a few days to themselves if their regular lives are full of activity and meaningful people.
So when you lack control over your situation, solitude becomes loneliness. If you feel your isolation wasn’t chosen, and you can’t control it, that exile can be unbearable. The key, in my opinion, to reducing loneliness, is to regain some control.
For me , the best way to enjoy solitude is by improving my inner world first. I may have had difficulties controlling my loneliness from the outside, but I could control my inner world so that it would be more pleasant to live in isolation.
I quote what George Washington had said-It is far better to be alone, than to be in bad company.
Of course we can and should keep our composure and happiness regardless of circumstances - regardless of our friends, family and co-workers - regardless of gossip, sarcasm, and negativity.
That is why, I believe “Every day may not be good, but there’s something good in everyday” and with this intention,I want all my friends to nurture this positive thought by sharing the smallest good thing that made them happy (even if it was for a while) for that day with me.